my dating cycle

i've recently discovered [or simply come to terms with], what my "mistakes" are when dating. instead of trying to stumble over words to explain, i'll use this quote because it totally and completely encompasses everything that i've been doing since i started dating at the tender age of 12:

"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and then I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."

- Elizabeth Gilbert -

chili on cheating ...

...

"A lot of people out there are really good at hiding things and making it seem like everything is normal so you don’t suspect that they’re cheating. Usually things don’t work out, not because of a cheating situation. It could just be just compatibility. Most people, in my opinion, that are together and even married shouldn’t even be together. A lot of times you just have somebody in your life because you feel like you need someone in your life. You feel like you need a girlfriend or a boyfriend. Those are your own insecurities."

http://perezhilton.com/2010-04-08-preach-it-chilli-talks-cheating-usher

Gaga's words of wisdom ...

"Some women choose to follow men,
while others choose to follow their dreams.
If you're wondering which way to go,
remember that your career will never wake up
and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore."

-Lady Gaga

monotony

Main Entry: mo·not·o·ny
Pronunciation: \mə-ˈnä-tə-nē, -ˈnät-nē\

Function: noun

Date: 1706

1 : tedious sameness

...

that's exactly how i feel. not complaining about anything; my life is great. but it's the same thing every day ... same hair, same clothes, same phone, same trip to work, same job, same places to eat, same home furnishings ... etc, etc, etc.

it's just ... feeling like i'm stuck in a rut. with everything.

"Beware of monotony; it's the mother of all deadly sins."
-Edith Wharton-

[isn't that the truth]