Revolving Door

i feel like i'm going
through a revolving door
round and round
with no end in sight

i see the exits pass
i see each one go by
but i don't know which to take
try as i might

every way out
leads to a scenario
that i'm not yet sure
that i want to take

each way out
will have a different ending
i don't know which decision
i want to make

do i stay
or do i go
do i care
or just let it flow

do i want your heart
or just a moan
do i want to lease
or fully own

do i want to ask
what you want to do
does it even matter
do i just want to be #2

do i want to open a door
that i'm not ready to walk through
or leave it all to what-ifs
and if he only knew

do i even feel all that
do i feel anything at all
have i built it up so much
that i can't get through my own wall

i know what i want
but do i want it with you
do i want to keep you
or am i ok with it being through

even while i write this
i confuse myself more and more
so until i can make a decision
i'll keep going through the revolving door