i just want to ccrryy

things making me want to cry

work

seriously. i never really want to cry from work but i want to. every time i turn around something else needs to be done and it's never ending.

i have a project that every time i receive an email stating we're at the "home stretch", just more stuff gets added to it. longest home stretch ever. wtf.

sigh

i left early because of the snow and was never able to successfully connect to my work computer. thank you software company for having a retarded IT department and not supporting macs. you're awesome. :: thumbs up ::

sleep

or lack thereof. i cannot for the life of me get a regular sleep pattern back. and even if i do get 7 hours, i wake up SO drowsy i just can't get up. what's interesting though is that i used to have a job that started at 6am, and i could get up. when i worked in syracuse, i was at work everyday by 8am with no problem. now i'm older, and a real "grown up" and i can barely ever made it to work before 10am. wtf is going on.

hair

ok there are way bigger things to worry about but i'm on a mission to learn how to do my hair. i bought some new mousse and i *think* i may hate it. not sure yet. but i also started washing my hair differently at the same exact time i started using the new mousse, so i'm not sure what the problem is. is it the mousse? the new wash routine? now i have to sit around and play to see if i can figure it out ... me, the person filled with patience. sigh. this is harder than i thought. i've been told a lot recently by different people that my hair is great, i guess cuz they think i hate it or thin it's ugly or something, which i don't. i know it's pretty but good lord is it hard to manage. i'm starting to believe hair emulates personalities, cuz mine sure knows how to do what it wants, when it wants to. sometimes it likes product, sometimes it doesn't. sometime's it's in a happy mood and looks wonderful and sometimes it gets angry and stubborn.

hhmmm ... i think i may be on to something lmfao.

i will succeed in my mission! and then my hair will look like the pic below .. or as close enough to it as it allows me to get lolol